If you wish to message me directly, you may do so via email: myocddiary @ gmail .com
A little about my story:
My name is Julia Britz.
I was diagnosed with OCD while attending college back in 2005. I can remember starting my rituals at a preschool age with hand washing and waiting outside the bathroom so I could ask and make sure whoever was in there washed their hands. Each night I would confess my “sins” to my mom, apologizing for my shameful thoughts. I cried and had a difficult time falling asleep for years, often self medicating to pass out. As a teenager, my undiagnosed OCD progressed. I developed an eating disorder and practiced self harm. During college, things got more difficult. I could never get to class on time because I’d be doing rituals in the bathroom or locking my car over and over again. I couldn’t do a lot of things like watch the news or scary movies (scary like Harry Potter…) or shake hands. I felt guilty, ashamed and in pain. I was trapped in a box and suffered there totally confused, believing I was crazy. I had no idea I had OCD and did my best to hide my behavior. The thought of reaching out was not an option.
I was eventually diagnosed with severe OCD and eventually BPD. Finally, answers! Of course, this didn’t make the compulsions any easier, but it made me feel less crazy. My day was booked start to finish with obsessions and compulsions. I’ve delt with light switches, excessive hand washing, counting, checking, obsessions about violence, sexual thoughts and morbidity. I got brave enough to try ACT therapy and found it to be a great help. Correcting my other health problems with a naturopath did an unbelievable amount to alleviate much of my OCD as well. It is still a small part of me and probably always will be, but that is ok. Because of therapy and the help of my naturopath, I can handle the OCD moments when they come.