If you wish to message me directly, you may do so via email: myocddiary @ gmail .com
A little about my story:
My name is Julia
I was diagnosed with OCD during my undergrad in 2005. I remember starting my rituals at a preschool age with hand washing and waiting outside the bathroom so I could make sure that whoever was in there washed their hands. Each night I would confess my “sins” to my mom, apologizing for my shameful thoughts. I had a difficult time falling asleep for years, often self medicating to pass out. As a teenager, my undiagnosed OCD progressed. I developed an eating disorder and practiced self harm. During college, things got more obvious. I could never get to class on time because I’d be doing rituals in the bathroom or locking my car over and over again. I couldn’t do a lot of things like watch the news or scary movies (scary like Harry Potter…) or shake hands. I felt guilty, ashamed and in terrible emotional pain. I was trapped in a box and suffered there totally confused, believing I was crazy. I had no idea I had OCD and did my best to hide my behavior. The thought of reaching out was not an option.
I was eventually diagnosed with severe OCD and eventually BPD. Finally, answers! Of course, this didn’t make the compulsions any easier, but it made me feel less crazy. My day was booked start to finish with obsessions and compulsions.
In 2009 I made this very blog to share my story and encourage others to as well. I decided to document my journey so we could get through some of our struggle together.
I eventually got brave enough to try ACT therapy and found it to be a great help, and when I started treatment with my naturopathic doctor, my OCD became mostly alleviated. It took years of psychotherapy and naturopathic therapy, but I can say I am more than mentally healthy, I am happy.
Today I am a naturopathic medical student, passionate about soon being able to share the medicine that saved my life. 🙂